It is AMAZING how slow I am at slowing down! Ever since classes ended in March, I have been playing catchup! I thought I had about a week of ends to tie up and then I would be entering this world of peace and quiet, healing and homeschooling. Boy was I mistaken!
But even though my days aren’t the restful oasis I had imagined, the catch up IS getting done, which eases the weight of the burden I carry, and things really aren’t as hectic, and I really AM resting more, and having more time and energy for quality experiences with my family. We even made it to a few of the free performances at the University. Nights out with the family hasn’t been possible since……well……ever!
And along the way, I am also LEARNING more about slowing down. For instance:
Of all of the Stressors and Aggravations in my life, which must I endure and which could I simply eliminate?
I LOVE these “think out of your box” kind of questions. We get so busy dealing with what is in front of us, that we forget to discern. Years ago I worked on a shrimp boat. And while I can’t spell the French word we used for the process, we would stand at the back of the boat where the huge nets dumped into a large bin, and we would separate the trash from the shrimp. Sometimes it was really trash, like Styrofoam cups, but mostly it was just things that weren’t shrimp. Fish, jellyfish and seaweed got thrown back into the water, and when we wanted them, bluepoint crabs were thrown into a bucket for a crab boil later in the day. The shrimp would be brought to be sold at the weighing stations back at the dock.
So I have that image now. What in my life is the shrimp, the good stuff that I am actually here for? What things that pop up are the crabs, useful opportunities and blessings to be utilized? (Note: a lesson all home school moms learn is that we can’t keep all the “crabs”. As delicious as they are, if we don’t have time today to boil them, throw them back in the water!) And which things are the jellyfish and seaweed? Those things that mistakenly get caught in the net of my life, but they are really meant for someone else, and I don’t have to make them my business.
So, maybe I am not slowing way down, but I am not in quite the mad rush that I was before, and I suppose this is progress. Thanks be to God for progress, and for learning how to progress even more!